I really dun know what else to say to her anymore... all i want is to just help her.. i do not wan to see her alone.. i just wan to clear the misunderstanding between her and karen/jason only yet all i did now is hurt and hurt to the both of us... i am really so tired... i just wan to be friends with her and each live our life happily.. issit really so hard.. i really had it.. i wont interfere anymore.. hope that this way she would be happier.. i will remember the times and memories in my heart.

i wont regret anymore..i did not try to harm anyone.. though i do admit that i am not perfect or wat, i do blame her before but that was at the very beginning but NOT ANYMORE!!! why cant she just believe me!?! i have really tried my best.. even if ppl say i am stupid, softhearted, useless or wat.. i dun care anymore.. i will continue to live my life..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Lots of things have been happening recently.. And I am really quite sad abt it..there seems to be some misunderstanding among our grp..and it's sad to see it becomes like this..I did not do anything at all.. I am also trying my very best to live happy and not doing anything to make the both of us as bad as unhappy as it is now anymore.. I seriously have no idea what is going on now too.. I dun know if she is misunderstanding me or what.. But i just dun feel good at all to see her like so upset.. Maybe it's just me for thinking too much but if it's really about me.. I do not wan to have any misunderstaning between us.. Just hope that if there is anything, we could have talk about it and clear the air.. I just dun want to see her alone too.. Knowing that she is happy and I am happy with my life it's enough le.. Though we may not be lovers anymore, also hope that we could still be close friends.. But I doubt it's gonna happen if there is anything on but not cleared..though no matter what I hope there will be a day whereby we can really talk to each other like friend again..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Did not expect myself to blog again for this.. Our precious - AiAi ... Has left us this mroning... Saw her frozen there not moving at all totally broke my heart... Another of my precious has left me.. Still remember the times when we used to play and hold her in our arms.. Feeding her.. Though she is very naughty at times.. But we still love her.. The only thing that belongs to us is gone..unknowingly she has been with us for about two years 6 mths since the day I and you brought her.. For some reason whenever I think back..my tears starts to drop...

Thank you aiai for been with me and my family and jia an.. You will always be a part of
me.. I will always miss you aiai..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


This is my last post to you..

Felt that somehow we are drifting furthur and furthur away..How I wish none of this has ever happen but... I understand.. No one would
want either of this to happen too.. It's abit sad that we just end this way and now somehow we had quite abit of misunderstanding towards each other and end up quarrellibg hating and distancing from each other furthur... You said that talking to me it's like talking to a cow... I can understand why you are doing all this.. Hoping to keep the group together.. I know it's been hard on you.. Sorry... You may think that I am fake or childish or selfish or wat.. I did thought of trying.. But I really still need time.. I won't be happy this way.. I believe you would want me to make you unhappy or affect ur life anymore and I definitely do not want to make
you unhappy anymore too... Hope you will understand one day... No matter wat our situation now or you may hate me now but if you need someone to be there.. I will be... Just a call away... Be happy always jia an...

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Wonder why am I so troubled over it.. I really wonder... If only things that are happening now is on me... ... I feel so envy of them... So foolish of me... At least you are happy now... Will miss you....

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Just saw the news that the wishing sphere at the floating platform of esplanade will be recycled overseas soon.. Among the wishing sphere lies the wish we once make together.. Felt kinda sad to see it gone soon.. Since it once hold our promise and memories...

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Just came back from genting..been long time since i go genting though most of the stuffs are almost still the same.. Had fun there.. Love you daddy,mummy and both of my sister krys and sarah.. Hahah.. Still silly of me to have the thought if only she could be there with me..

Sometimes i can only blame myself for been so silly and foolish to see some stuffs.. Beats me.. Till now it still hurts.. But like i said.. I can only blame myself for been curious or silly.. After all that me and her has gone through together.. All the fun.. All the sadness.. All the joy.. And the things we did together .. Just realised i am so easily replaced.. Sad to say.. Ya.. My heart still hurts and misses her though i may seems happy or perhaps i am just trying to be happy.. There are even times i still pin some hope that she will still love me but i know it wont anymore.. Clearly from wat i saw.. They are happy now.. She is happy now which is the most important.. Just kinda brings back memories when we were still together.. To be true..as a guy.. My heart definitely is jealous.. But another part of me really do felt glad to know that she is happy.. perhaps our love story really ends here..
really miss her still... Hoping i can be there for her someday.. It is also time for me to close this blog....

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


To the special someone...

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I Love You" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?